obsessing...

ok...I admit it...I'm obsessing over the news WAY WORSE than I normally do! This entire Virginia Tech thing has me glued to the Fox News Channel! I am just completely shocked & horrified that this is the world I'm giving to Brandon & Katelyn! These children were at school...they weren't in gangs, they weren't in the inner city (not that I'm justifying violence there either...but it's a fact of life there for some reason!)...they were at school, educating themselves...to be productive members of society! And they were slaughtered...I can't begin to imagine their fear...or that of their parents upon seeing those police officers on their front steps...NOT MY BABIES is all I keep thinking...PLEASE...not my babies!!! I couldn't possibly want to live a second without either of them in this world!!!

& yes, I'm a girl who has guns in her house...AGAINST MY WILL...but there should absolutely be laws restricting people from getting them...maybe then I'd be able to get rid of the ones in our house! Guns scare me...I don't want to hear, it's the people, not the guns...if you're trained to respect them you're careful & these things don't happen...THESE THINGS HAPPEN...we've all seen it, very closely...it's just something else that makes me think of that awful January day...when that beautiful, brilliant boy I just loved to pieces left this Earth...it makes me sad for him & his family all over again...not that I stopped...it just brings me back to those moments...hearing Barry tell me he was gone...& I couldn't help any of them...I still can't...I still don't believe it some days...that I'll never hear that laugh...or smell his smell...or hear him tell me to "Let It Be!"

Guns & your every day run of the mill Joe Schmoe don't mix! If it requires me giving up some damn right that people thought we needed over 200 years ago to make sure there is ONE less thing out there trying to hurt my children (aren't there really enough other things to worry about???) I'm willing to give up my STUPID Right to Bear Arms!

My sister argued that it was our right to them...in case we the American People disagreed with the government...we could have guns so we could overthrow the government...can a 9 mm. Glock beat an ASSHOLE named Bush with NUCLEAR weapons??? I think not...how about we get some gun control laws so there's one less thing parents have to worry about...

then we'll work on what to do with pedophiles.... :)

SANJAYA FINALLY GOT THE BOOT LAST NIGHT...I SLEPT A LITTLE BETTER AFTER THAT...but I did keep seeing this face of this sick bastard that slaughtered all of those innocent people while I was sleeping...maybe a little less Fox News tonight!!

Pardon my ranting...it's just insane, all of it!! God bless & keep you all safe...I love you to pieces!! xoxoxo & God Bless the families of these victims...& the victims themselves...give them all the strength to feel the love & prayers of people they do not know...who are crying with them & hoping that prayers will eventually lessen their pain!

I gotta go to church this weekend...I feel like my spirit could use a swift kick in the rear...or maybe a little love!

Happy Thursday!